"I regret sleeping with you"

A few weeks ago I was having a conversation with a young lady I dated awhile back, when I finally said to her that I felt after we slept together last summer she became distant. We never had a fight or any bad blood that I know of, but I can tend to be rather oblivious to her having feelings or really women having feelings in general. She always seemed uneasy around me. She doesn't say much and does the awkward/uncomfortable smile, so you don't know if she is having a good time or not. It was important to me that I clear the air before this summer began so I can attempt to pick back up where we left off.

Anonymous Call Girl(ACG) would come over to hang out, but I never knew if ACG actually wanted to be there with me, which was fine because I suppose both of our needs were fulfilled. Now that its almost summer our talking has picked up. I didn't see any real reason to talk to her during the school year when I'm not around. After all, it's not like I'm looking to make a best friend.

Finally, after actually taking the time to think about our situation it occurred to me that there could be a few reasons ACG was uneasy around me. And the number one reason is probably that she slept with me one of the first nights we hung out. Granted, I actually don't think she is a slut or easy, I think it was truly one of those situations where a girl says "I never do things like this" and might actually be being honest. Yes of course, this is the most over-used comment in the female language.

During our recent conversation ACG finally voiced her opinion, which is rare for her. She is usually a "hey whats up, how are you" girl and not much conversation after that, when out of nowhere she finally said, "I regret that we had sex last summer." Not exactly staying within the lines of the hey how are you, but I like awkward/uncomfortable situations and its not everyday I get great exciting news like a girl telling me how she regrets that I'm on her list. How do you even respond to that? Thanks, it was great for me too? But, I was impressed she stepped up and said how she felt.

After spilling the beans and feeling foolish and probably uncomfortable (because who would regret sleeping with me?) she said, "well I don't regret that we did it, I just regret how it happened. I don't want you to think I do things like this all of the time," which brings me to the point of the day.

Every single girl tells a guy she doesn't do things like this. Maybe ACG doesn't, but she did on this occasion. How do so many girls lay in bed with a guy and say I never act like that or this is my only one night stand? When a girl says to a guy they don't usually behave that way, does it actually make them actually believe its true?

It beats me. Do they think it makes us feel better to know they haven't done this a lot? Do they think we care? We don't bang out a girl and say ohh I've never done this before. We know what we are getting into and if we wanted to have a conversation about it we would. We juice a girl and ask the only relevant question that matters, "are you on the pill?"